Most people see each other through the outer shell, the physical appearance. Look her hair looks nice, looks he has muscles. His/her smile. His/ her eyes.
As an observer, I would careless of appearance. I notice actions, behavior. I want to know more about people’s history, your weakness, failures, strengths. Past relationships and why it ended. I know I am nosy and everything but that is how I connect. Physically, mentally, and/or spiritually connection with someone.
Maybe that is why I hate small talk. I really don’t share about the weather, politics, sports, school and such.
This is how I choose friends. How I start liking someone…
Then again, the main reason, I probably act this is from this Bible verse:
As a Christian, I wanted to be more like Christ. So when I read this verse, something hit me and changed my perspective. I used to see things, black and white. But there is color even when sin corrupts our perspective. We are wicked; so we forget that we can still show love to those who are different than us. It doesn’t matter of the religion or color of skin.
This is why I have those blog posts about judge not and such. Because I hate hatred, we show to others. The negativity.
I’m sick of this.. I’m sick of saying we are Christians when we judge everyone. If we want the world to see God, we need to start acting like Christ. Last time, I checked Jesus didn’t judged the tax collector, Mary who wiped her hair on his feet, demon possessed men, the blind, cripple and the Romans who tortured him. He showed love to sinners. We are sinners and everyone around us, Christian or not are sinners. We are all the same. Sure, God lead us to Him and this doesn’t make us the exclusive. We are all the same except everyone is all going down a path. A path to sin or God and we can’t presume we know who are Christians are not.
I know the world is a dark place but treating people differently because of a sin is not right. We can show them love without supporting the sin. We can’t make them change their mind when we spit on them. Did Jesus spit on people?
I know its hard. We protest things because we don’t want the laws of sin. Then if the laws pass, we look away from the people who voted for that. We get disgusted and unkind words come out. We bet them down with fights, words, and actions. Why? Sure, we want the world to fall to its knees for Christ but to show the world, we must show them in a Christlike matter.We can’t show gnashing of teeth, disgusting looks, the laughter, words that can’t return back to our mouths.
God made us to love. God didn’t create us for war, chaos, hatred, and blood. Sure, we were commanded to battle God’s enemies in the past like the Canaanites. But doesn’t make us fit to fight the sins of this world. Sure, we are to stand up for what is right. But to start fights, no, that is not the Christian way.
Something I hate the most, is how we treat people because how they looked. Even people in the Church act like this. No, we are not an exclusive white church, excuse me? Last time, I checked. Heaven was not an exclusive white church. The church should welcome everyone. We need to show diversity in our community churches. Oh, no, we have a black, asian, or Mexican family joining our church. Lets ignore them, turn our noses the the other way. No. No. Its is not right. Selfish, much? Prideful, much?
Yes, I am no pastor. But I speaking the Truth. I’m someone who struggles with my faith in Him. Yes, I struggle with this problem too. I am saying, are we following Jesus’ example? Are we loving our enemies? Show kindness always.
Be the Christian, you want the world to see. Not the Christian, you prefer other Christians to see. You are to glorify God, not glorify man.
This is just the short version of a chapter of a nonfiction story, I am currently working on.A more detailed with scripture will be added on the final version.
Its a nonfiction advice book for teens, young adults, and even adults.
They told you that God is love. But you don’t see that. You were abandoned in an event of your life. A loved one died. You were abused. You were raped. An unexpected pregnancy. All the emotions hit you hard like a hurricane and then you blame Him. You think maybe if I curse Him, I will feel better. Or if I just give myself to the world by blood and death everything will be over.
Now you lay on a marble bathtub in the middle of nowhere in a motel room. Staring at the ceiling and question if killing yourself will satisfy your needs. But lets just pause there before you do anything rash.
What is the reason for this action? Is it to satisfy your needs like I state above? Or do you think people applaud you after you kill yourself? And I wouldn’t be lying if people actually say or do that?
Lets pock at a TV show that reflects this. 13 Reason Why. A teen girl kills herself because she was raped and blackmailed. People enjoy this show. Of course, things after this show aired that you wouldn’t suprised that people petitioned it to be canceled. The reason is that killing oneself is like a joke. Its entertainment. Young girls were triggered from this show and killed themselves. Only for the parents to learn later after they died what the cause of it all. This is sickening.
Lets stop take another example of selfish love. Me before You by Jojo Moyers. This story is disgusting. An disturbing ending for a popular romance book. I am confused why is this a great story? I love you so much that I support yourself killing yourself in an illegal matter. If you can’t live life as a paralyzed, then should murder yourself. And no, I am not ratting the author. I am just stating my opinion.
See that I changed killed to murder yourself because you are murder a body even if its your own. God states, “The soul that sinneth, it shall die.” (Ezekiel 18:2)
Murder is the seven deadly sins. Murder is a criminal, unholy, unrighteous act. Murder is like following the footsteps of the Devil. A fallen angel who only wants to kill all men.
This will be finally example before I make my conclusion. I told myself I wouldn’t mention politics but really. It only started in the politics ever since the bill came up several years ago. And if you guessed it how does it reflect selfish love? Women’s rights even when women’s bodies don’t belong to us. Everything comes from God so why this now? People want to be feminist and think their feelings are more important than the Creator that made them. And for killing an unborn baby is ok? Maybe you are some who are against my views on the matter.
So what if you had to watch your child as baby be ripped from womb and killed right in front of you? Or watch as your child thrown in a pit of beasts and they rip she/he apart. That is ok? The only difference in the modern world is that we are put to sleep for the process so how really knows what the doctors at abortion centers are actually doing.
Life is Precious. Don’t risk your own. If you are now question me, how can I be saved from all of this? I almost thought of killing myself and have killed an unborn child. Don’t lose hope. God is love. He will cleanse and forgive. And if you don’t believe me.
Christ healed and forgave a leprosy, adultery, a thief, murderer, lesbian, liar, sinner, prideful man, a greedy man, an envious man, etc. Christ heals all men with any background. He doesn’t care what gender or race you are. He loves you.
" When the righteous cry for help, the Lord hears and delivers them out of all their troubles. The Lord is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit. Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the Lord delivers him out of them all. He keeps all his bones; not one of them is broken"- Psalm 34:17-20
Now you want help. Or you don't know what is next. I am no expert. So you can seek a local pastor, christian counselor or you could read the Bible.
If you are still reading and seeking help for suicidal thoughts go no other place than here.
Welcome, owlnerds. This message are for you and all the people. If you do follow me, I wouldn’t be surprised if you unfollowed or unsubscribed but the truth must be shown.
Something today, the world struggles with feelings. We base everything on feelings. We don’t think of the most important things. If something doesn’t sit right with ourselves we flash hate at them. Feelings the reason our society has scrapped the word gender. Why we have to watch our tongue with pronouns? Oh, no someone will be offended like it has been happening before this. No, way? *rolls my eyes* It’s stupid. Just stupid even corporations are practicing the use of pronouns. Really? Why? Today I feel like a man. Oh, I am a woman today. I am genderless, excuse me. Your life is not based on your feelings and thoughts. I am sorry to tell you that but it’s true.
Even your birth certificate didn’t choose your gender. Wow. You did it. Your feelings told to ignore them. This thing, you have where feelings are more important is called sin. Temptations push against your conscience and tell you are free to do whatever you want.
Which is more important God or Feelings? God doesn’t say your feelings should guide your life. No, My Word should.
Your feelings just want to be heard that is why people are being pressured to things to fit the crowds. This is why we think we fall in “love” with the same gender. This is why we kill babies. This is why people die. Feelings are not going to save the world.
God is. If only you would notice Him. You know He chooses to create you. He could have not to put you in existence. But He chooses to do so because of the love of His Son. God is real and everlasting but feelings disappear. Feelings lead to temptations and temptations lead to sin.
What is more important you or God? Did you not read that ME ME ME game in life gets you nowhere?
But God first, read His Word, Follow Christ. Repent your sin leads you more to Him and eternal life.
Welcome back to a new post, owlnerds. Today I share a journal entry. I am currently in the progress of moving my second blog stuff to here. I thought best to work on one blog instead of juggling two. So there will be blog posts from my other blog. You have been warned.
(From Feb. 11, 2019)
So this blog post is long overdue. I probably avoiding this post for the longest even before I launched this blog itself. I told myself I would never write this but I think if you write something down it is easier to let go of the situation.
Letting go of a situation you can’t control at all is a struggle. I have been struggling it, especially with this situation. I wouldn’t go into details but if you know me you probably what the story is about. Or now know the real reason behind some of my recent actions I been doing. So I know this person for the longest time and we promised to go to the same places (college, living together, and such) but this idea we had was not the same of what God wanted. And for one, I didn’t want this to happen. And for years, I saw signs but ignored it. Since I have a tendency to give people ton of second chances.
The first signs of this were I had this person and another person really close to me but they clash. And that person knew fell apart and I couldn’t believe it happen.
The other person we got closer but slowly we fell apart. We were not close friends anymore and the worst thing is that I am too afraid to talk to the person and ask what we are anymore. Since I am afraid of being shattered again. The other worst thing about is that I see this person at least one week and I always seem to pass this person. It really is a struggle and fear I have still never get over it. So prayer would is much needed.
And being who I am, wrote poems to express my mixed feeling toward them and no one actually knows the real reason behind those poems. I really just lost myself in this. I now avoid getting close to people or making new friends because I am afraid the past will repeat itself. If you are a friend reading this, I am sorry I have been distant and it isn’t because of my introverted nature, it’s because of this.
Now I write the harder part of this post. Another thing, I struggle to let go. So around five years ago and everything was going well. A new year was happening and everything was fine until one day my family received news that would change my life forever. The news was that my grandfather I died from unknown reasons. I had already been struggling since I saw him in the hospital with blood clots in his legs around a year before. But to lose him, I think I froze. And once you hear some sad like this, you would cry and get emotional but I just didn’t. I refused to believe it. My best friend was gone. The closest family member, I had was gone. The worst thing is that I don’t know if he is heaven since he never gave testimony in his belief in God so I was basically devasted.
When people say you will see them in heaven and I know it is in God’s power whether or not he is heaven or not. But this is another thing shattered me. I shut all emotion out and started to see hallucinations of him whenever we drove to places. We would be driving I would see someone that looked like him on the side of the road but no one was actually there. I was just imagining it. The hardest thing, when you are at the store and you see someone that looks at him but know isn’t since he is not here anymore.
Its been a struggle the past several years and I still am affected by it. This is the reason why it is so hard for me to let go. And of course, they are just memories. I am trusting God in all of this. Yeah, the real reason behind my distance toward people. Thanks for reading.
Welcome back. This week I will be writing the correct way of a book review. Or the way I prefer to write one. Take your pick, people.
For many years, I wrote book reviews like the summary of the book and the shortest nicest opinion of it even if I disliked the book. Because I so used to writing a book report or essay for school. Now that I have written some reviews. I see the best way is to write honestly. Especially since I am a Christian, I should make sure I give warning to others so that they don’t read any sinful content. Even if you read only half of a book, you can write a book review even if the reason you choose to stop reading it for sinful content or cursing. There is no guideline against that.
The last thing you don’t want to do is be afraid of people who will judge you because of certain review. Especially since recently I read some people judging a book because of an author’s review of a popular young adult book. Haters are gonna hate. There will never be a time when someone will always love your book. The silly thing about it is half of the book reviewers was just basically copying and pasting other people reviews. The dumbest thing you can do online is to start a debate. Half the time, no one really cares what you are talking about.
One of the first things, you should write is the title of the book, author’s name, synopsis, and genre(s) because not everyone is going know what you are talking about.
Next stop mention all language, and romance in the book. This is helpful especially since you don’t want a young person reading a book meant for older people.
Lastly, I would mention your rating for that book and why is that.
The worst thing you can do in a book review is to rip the author’s story and believe something that is not even mentioned in the author’s bio. Even if it is the worst book you ever do. Never destroy an author’s reputation. Just because disliking book doesn’t mean you have to write hateful reviews about the author. There is an old saying we should have as a guideline for book reviews. If you can’t say anything nice, don’t say anything at all.
Is there anything I missed? Comment down below what you do for book reviews.
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