Life of An Owl Nerd

The Observer

Most people see each other through the outer shell, the physical appearance. Look her hair looks nice, looks he has muscles. His/her smile. His/ her eyes.

As an observer, I would careless of appearance. I notice actions, behavior. I want to know more about people’s history, your weakness, failures, strengths. Past relationships and why it ended. I know I am nosy and everything but that is how I connect. Physically, mentally, and/or spiritually connection with someone.

Maybe that is why I hate small talk. I really don’t share about the weather, politics, sports, school and such.

This is how I choose friends. How I start liking someone…

Then again, the main reason, I probably act this is from this Bible verse:

"The Lord does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart.” (1 Samuel 16:7 NIV)

As a Christian, I wanted to be more like Christ. So when I read this verse, something hit me and changed my perspective. I used to see things, black and white. But there is color even when sin corrupts our perspective. We are wicked; so we forget that we can still show love to those who are different than us. It doesn’t matter of the religion or color of skin.

This is why I have those blog posts about judge not and such. Because I hate hatred, we show to others. The negativity.

So that is that. Done, explaining myself.

-See ya!! Later folks… 🙂

2020, here we come!!

Life Vs Self: Love Not Hate

I’m sick of this.. I’m sick of saying we are Christians when we judge everyone. If we want the world to see God, we need to start acting like Christ. Last time, I checked Jesus didn’t judged the tax collector, Mary who wiped her hair on his feet, demon possessed men, the blind, cripple and the Romans who tortured him. He showed love to sinners. We are sinners and everyone around us, Christian or not are sinners. We are all the same. Sure, God lead us to Him and this doesn’t make us the exclusive. We are all the same except everyone is all going down a path. A path to sin or God and we can’t presume we know who are Christians are not.

I know the world is a dark place but treating people differently because of a sin is not right. We can show them love without supporting the sin. We can’t make them change their mind when we spit on them. Did Jesus spit on people?

I know its hard. We protest things because we don’t want the laws of sin. Then if the laws pass, we look away from the people who voted for that. We get disgusted and unkind words come out. We bet them down with fights, words, and actions. Why? Sure, we want the world to fall to its knees for Christ but to show the world, we must show them in a Christlike matter.We can’t show gnashing of teeth, disgusting looks, the laughter, words that can’t return back to our mouths.

God made us to love. God didn’t create us for war, chaos, hatred, and blood. Sure, we were commanded to battle God’s enemies in the past like the Canaanites. But doesn’t make us fit to fight the sins of this world. Sure, we are to stand up for what is right. But to start fights, no, that is not the Christian way.

Something I hate the most, is how we treat people because how they looked. Even people in the Church act like this. No, we are not an exclusive white church, excuse me? Last time, I checked. Heaven was not an exclusive white church. The church should welcome everyone. We need to show diversity in our community churches. Oh, no, we have a black, asian, or Mexican family joining our church. Lets ignore them, turn our noses the the other way. No. No. Its is not right. Selfish, much? Prideful, much?

Yes, I am no pastor. But I speaking the Truth. I’m someone who struggles with my faith in Him. Yes, I struggle with this problem too. I am saying, are we following Jesus’ example? Are we loving our enemies? Show kindness always.

Be the Christian, you want the world to see. Not the Christian, you prefer other Christians to see. You are to glorify God, not glorify man.

This is just the short version of a chapter of a nonfiction story, I am currently working on.A more detailed with scripture will be added on the final version.

Its a nonfiction advice book for teens, young adults, and even adults.

Life VS Self

Dream Big

What makes me really happy is when I find out that someone I know is pursuing their dream job. I had that moment, recently and it makes me so happy. If I was that person to randomly applaud them for that, I would. But since I’m an awkward duck, I wouldn’t be doing that.

I say this because most people, you usually get a practical degree, business. No offense for business majors but when someone gets a degree, they actually choose for themselves. Like a hobby turning to a career. Its gives me goosebumps.

And even if you don’t go college, don’t give up on your hobbies. For one day, they may surprise you and you could make it a career.

I write stories and since I actually haven’t published anything with getting money from, I don’t worry about it. Because I am getting closer and closer. I do plan on publishing something, next year and sure, I can quit my job and do that full time, yet. But I write because I love it and I will wait for years if I have to. I will not force something to only get failure.

One thing, I want to state is NEVER NEVER NEVER let anyone discourage you. That will tear you down and make you want to stop. Don’t listen to the hate. Always hope. Always show patience. There is a better light ahead.

And no, it will not come overnight like most people wish it was. I want to instantly make money, to be famous. Well, here is the truth. Its not going to happen if you have that mindset. You keep thinking like that and you will never get there.

Start by making mini goals. It doesn’t have to be big. Start practicing. Find a website that you can start publishing your work. wattpad, deviantart, or you can get an instagram and share your art (poetry, music, drawing, painting, video, etc).

Slowly but surely, you will get noticed. Someone will appreciate your work that you could be offered a job.

Dream big. Be bold. Be brave. Wait patiently. Show the haters that you can tower over them. And never never give up. The future may feel far away but it is closer than you think.

Unpopular Opinions Book Tag

Look, Sunny is sharing a book tag. When did she post a book tag? A very long time, if I do say myself. To the original owner: TheBookArcher You’re welcome!!!

Let’s begin:

Question 1: A popular book or series that you didn’t like.

Fangirl by Rainbow Rowell. Cath can be relatable but at times, I really wanted her to shut up. The first part of the book has excessive swearing. The second part of the book is not for discussion.

Question 2: A popular book or series that everyone else seems to hate but you love.

The Giver Series. I don’t understand why they dislike maybe because the story lacks something but I don’t see it.

Question 3: A Love Triangle where the main character ended up with the person you did NOT want them to end up with

Question 4: A popular book genre that you hardly reach for.

Straight up Romance, Thrillers, Science Fiction

Question 5: A popular or beloved character that you do not like.

Tris by Divergent by Veronica Roth. Albus from The Cursed Child by J.K. Rowling, Harry Potter, Katniss,

Question 6: A popular author that you can’t seem to get into.

Sarah J Mass… no comment.

Question 7: A popular book trope that you’re tired of seeing.

The Chosen One and Love Triangle Everyone writes about the chosen one.. Harry Potter, Katniss. Then the love triangle: Gale,Peeta, and Katniss ;America, Aspen, and Maxon It gets tiring really fast.

Question 8: A popular series that you have no interest in reading.

Throne of Glass, Mortal Instruments, Twilight, Game of Thrones

Question 9: The saying goes “The book is always better than the movie”, but what movie or T.V. show adaptation do you prefer more than the book?

Ahhhhhh… *minds goes completely blank

For those who loved reading this, you are officially tagged.

Thanks for reading!!!!

Breaking Free

Since I was little, I keep my thoughts and emotions to myself. I didn’t feel the need to burden people. I took the saying take care of others than yourself seriously. Who would want to hear the feelings or thoughts I had? Who would actually care? I shrugged my shoulders, no one does. They are too busy to notice anything.

And sure, I would lie saying I am fine. Or life is great. When at the time, it wasn’t. The pressure of the teen. Making friends when everyone has already choose their circle of friends. Questioning whether or not to tag along with your brothers and their friends. Then just putting myself in a group even when I felt like an outsider and still do.

Then when I thought my world was fine, it crumbled faster than ever when my grandfather died. And I thought God was punishing me and I felt back and avoided His Word and lied that I read the Bible daily but didn’t at all.

And sure, blocking everyone was not helpful in my journey but losing a childhood friend among the mess I created made my spiritual journey worsen. I felt betrayed. I felt alone. And sure, I’m not a person that loves physical touch but saying anything during my grief would help me a little.

Like most people, people grieve by crying but I didn’t. I push his death aside and I didn’t want to think of losing him. But when hallucinations and dreams, came along. I knew I was truly blocking his death. I didn’t want to accept that he was gone.

From grief, losing a friend like a sister, I thought what better way to heal was to distance myself. To block the friends.

And yes, its been a hot minute, since I actually spoke to people I used to talk in a honest conversation. Of how I feel. Where I stand.

And I still at the stage of trusting anyone on how I feel because the mouth speaking faster and really don’t want to be the gossip. I don’t want the misunderstanding of my words, be something else.

But I was tired of selfishness. I am tired of the hate. I tired of the lies, fakeness, and dishonesty. I tired of small talk. Tired of always trying to communicate when no one wants to show commitment.

Just a few weeks ago, I had to take a break because anxiety attacks came and gone for no reason. I slowly becoming emotional and physical exhausted. Work, stress, stress of why I was so stressed. Trying to make things good but only making things worst. Getting no answers when I was trying so hard to show people that I actually wanted to hang out with them.

But I’m done. Sure, distance shouldn’t break a friendship. But to feel like you are the only one trying to find time in your schedule to hang out. Trying to fix something that was already broken in pieces.

And sure, I was attempting to fix all those years of distancing myself from people. I wanted to be more social but what do I get for trying, nothing.

I’m breaking free. Exposing myself. Being loyal to people but realizing no one actually cares. Or they are just sick of fake excuses of being distance from everyone. Being the last choice for things. Always been left out. No one cares what I love so much.

I honestly don’t care if I lose people from this. I doubt anyone I call a friend will actually read this post. Done trying. I just done.

I’m breaking free from the cage, I created for myself.

I’m free.

Now for new friends, new adventures, and happy memories.

50 Facts about Me

The quietest ones are the dangerous- told by a guy at Dollar General
Pain should not let you lose opportunities of happiness.
Being in solitude is dangerous- me 70% of the time
Real friends support each other
Grief and Loss is probably one of the hardest thing to heal from
Don’t blame people because of a problem you have.
The problem is usually inside of you and mental health
Writing words are easier than physical interaction
Smiling can be one of the easiest things to do and the hardest to fake
Falling for someone can the biggest and worst surprise, you can receive
Falling for someone is the easiest thing to do but the hardest things to explain why when you have no idea why you fell for that person
Deciding not to college because money is not cheap and I’m one of those indecisive people ever and also, I want to do all the degrees.
It’s so easy to lose someone, who you would think would stay with you forever.
Be a voice when some people can’t.
When your grief and trust issues doesn’t let you get close to someone again.
Friends always come to end but books are forever since oo and be combined into the infinity sign.
I am a popular loner.
Tired of the fakeness, people give me
Liking someone doesn’t mean we have to jump right into a romantic relationship
Please flirt with someone near your age, not me thank you very much.
I know a lot about makeup but still can’t do liquid liner.
All I really need is Jesus.
The best friend you can have is your siblings. They are stuck with you until death.
My stories will always be the opposite of squeaky clean Christian Fiction
The saddest thing is when your co-workers text chat is blowing up your phone, then the chat you made for your church friends.
When you try to get something together but no one thinks it’s a good idea to actually text back.
Always feeling ghosted by people you care for
Tired of being taken for granted
Would rather hear your fears, dislikes, emotions than hear how school is controlling your life?
My best friend is Jesus.
Sister are better than people who pretend to be your sister
If I unfollow you, it’s because I’m tired of the fakeness and the little effort you show towards me
I prefer the physical interaction than the ongoing online interaction, I get.
I prefer to talk to someone in person than text messages
Done giving out second chances
If I write something dedicated to you, you are special to me
Fake people are not worth my time
Memories hurt the worst especially if they are about people, you once knew to love.
If you tell to look at someone in your perspective, I’m sorry but your perspective will not change my opinion
Attracted to glasses, nature lover, Jesus lover, thinkers/observers
I value honesty and loyalty
Wishing to find people who don’t remind me of your old self
My passion is to help people in both my day and night job.
My night job is a writer
I’m an advocate for the voiceless
My writing is not squeaky clean Christian fiction
The topics I write about are the nitty gritty and dark, the world wishes to hide away
It hurts the worst when the person you once knew as a friend is now a stranger to you
Breaking free for the silence, I once bottled up inside
Show love to everyone. I don’t care about the color of your skin, your religion, your political party. Don’t treat people harshly because they don’t look like you. Hatred is not a great quality. It never was.

Thanks for reading part one of I’m a open book, tune in next week for another 50 facts about me.

NaNoWriMo Tag

Rules

Thank the awesome blogger who tagged you! Thank you Esther!!!
Link back to the creator of this tag, Sophie @Sophie’s Corner.
Feel free to use the NaNoWriMo 20 Questions Tag graphics!
Answer the questions.
Tag some friends who are also doing NaNo this year.
And have fun!!!

Questions and Answers:

TELL ME ABOUT YOUR NANOWRIMO PROJECT THIS YEAR! GIVE ME A BLURB!

This story was heavily inspired by the anime series, The Last Airbender and superpowers.

When Brianne discovered that she was a mutant in her mother’s womb, everything changed. The worst part of all of this, is that her husband knows nothing about her powers. She pretends to live a normal life as a nurse. But when the outer world breaks the walls, everything comes to a reality. Everything is breaking free, all the hate, all the love, and all the lies. Brianne is clueless what will happen, who would believe her, and who to trust.

WHAT’S THE GENRE?

A new adult contemporary fantasy story

DESCRIBE YOUR MC IN THREE WORDS.

mess, outspoken, caring

WITHOUT SPOILERS, DESCRIBE YOUR VILLAIN IN THREE WORDS.

politic evil mess

WHAT IS YOUR GOAL? (THE TRADITIONAL 50K? 20K? 5K? OR……. 100K?)

Realistic goal: 20k Dream Goal is 30k words

IS THIS YOUR FIRST DRAFT? SECOND? THIRD?

First/Second Draft, the next answer will make sense in a minute..

ARE YOU STARTING A NEW PROJECT (OR DRAFT), OR CONTINUING AN EXISTING ONE?

I am planning on working on a story I did for NaNoWrimo 2017. I wrote around 20k words but for some reason, stopped, abandoned it. So yeah. So instead of finishing the first draft, I am attempting to do a second draft as well.

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE TIME TO WRITE IN THE DAY?

Last at night. 10pm, 11pm, 12pm, 1am… So who knows if I will get sleep, next month???

WHERE ARE YOU GOING TO WRITE?

On a yellow chair, my desk, or my bed, or the floor.

COMPUTER OR PAPER?

Computer although I might write some scenes on paper when I am not at the house.

NANOWRIMO IS A HUGE COMMITMENT!! HOW ARE YOU GOING TO MAKE TIME TO WRITE?

Read less, stop doing anything creative for a month

ARE YOU GOING TO PARTICIPATE IN LOCAL OR ONLINE NANOWRIMO EVENTS? (E.G. KICK-OFF PARTIES IN YOUR CITY, WRITE-INS, VIRTUAL WRITING SPRINTS…)

I probably will not do anything local. Maybe online events.. Maybe. Who knows??

DO YOU WRITE FROM BEGINNING TO END OR SKIP AROUND?

I usually skip around but since I am doing a second draft as well. I will probably work from beginning to end.

PLANNER OR PANTSER? (OR PLANTSER?)

Panster for the most part. This year, I am planster. I know what will happen, and what I should cover on, but things could happen.

WHAT WILL BE YOUR GO-TO NANOWRIMO SNACK?

Carrots, I been obsessed with them recently. I will snack on some cucumber and celery. Got to be healthy for once…

CHOICE OF CAFFEINE? (OR NO CAFFEINE?)

Coffee, tea, and water.

ANY REWARDS FOR MILESTONE ACHIEVEMENTS? FOR FINISHING NANOWRIMO?

Buy a typewriter, buying clothes

SHARE A TIP FOR OTHER NANO-ERS!

Remember to sleep and eat

HOW ARE YOU FEELING ABOUT NANOWRIMO? (EXCITED?! NERVOUS!? TERRIFIED?!)

Nervous, that I will get writer’s block. But excited to get this story out in the open.

SHARE AN AESTHETIC FOR YOUR NANOWRIMO NOVEL!

Lets just, I am too lazy or my story is really complex. Here is my Pinterest Board.

Tag anyone who wants to do this tag.

Thanks for reading!!!

Cozy Candle: Product Review (Fall Edition)

I am currently an affiliate for Cozy Candle so what better way to market the products by doing a product review.

Before I talk about the product, tell me discuss the company itself.

Cozy Candle originated Cleveland, Ohio, where the founder, B. Word Productions hand poured 100% soy wax candles during his junior year of Cleveland State University. Now the company now resides in Dallas, Texas.

What are in products, avoid harmful chemicals? Don’t worry, Cozy Candles got you.

So recently, I got the fall edition samples and I thought what better way to show my love of this collection but share the names of the candle and what each of them smell like.

The first one in the collection is Butter Pecan Waffles. Now you can drool for this one, I didn’t and almost ate the candle wax and no, I am not kidding. update: I ate the candle wax. Its amazing. Its taste as much as it smells like butter pecan waffles. Don’t judge me. XD

The second one is Peppermint. Sure, peppermint. Why would they put in a fall collection? Don’t be a spoil sport, will ya? Its taste like peppermint, yes, I am currently tasting candles wax now.

The third one is Vanilla Sugar Cookie. This is one is amazing. I may or may have not almost eaten the whole candle wax.

The fourth one is Fall Leaves. Its reminds me of apple pie, candy corn, apple cider, and fall. Its probably one of my favorites of the collection.

The fifth one is White Woods. Its basically all the scents you get when you are deep in the woods. mahogany, red woods and black cypress and back notes of musk, amber wood, velvet moss and leather. Its my second favorite one. Its wonderful in honesty.

The sixth one is Snickerdoodle. Another cookie scent, please we need another one. Yes, yes, we do. I don’t eat it, I don’t recommend it. Its strong. Strong like snickerdoodle but its smells delicious.

The seventh one is Creme Brulee. Its smells just like one. Caramelized vanilla. I didn’t taste no. It was too good for that.

The eighth and last one of the collection is Fall Sulaf. If you are craving a pumpkin pie but not wanting to make one. Just buy this one. Its smells like it. It taste like it too.

You guys should honestly go check out the collection and buy some.

The prices for the candles:

Sample: $1.98

COZY melt: $5.98

4oz – $5.98

8oz- $11.98

16oz- $22.98

Check out Cozy Candles and let me know which scent they should make next.

Cover Reveal of Jes Drew’s New Book

Jes Drew is publishing a new book.

Who is she? You ask.

Jes Drew is the author of the Ninja and Hunter trilogy, the Howling Twenty trilogy, the Kristian Clark saga, the Castaways trilogy, and The Dystopian Takeover trilogy. She read every fairy tale book she could get a hold of as a child, Captain America is her version of Prince Charming, and she’s pretty sure she’s a mermaid.

Contact her at: author.jes.drew@gmail.com

Blog: https://agencyofbooksandspies.blogspot.com/

Goodreads: https://www.goodreads.com/author/show/8405352.Jes_Drew

Wattpad: https://www.wattpad.com/user/DrewJes

Pinterest: https://www.pinterest.com/boosbooks7929/

You Tube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCGja0f51Ivfa7jySIBDSuLQ?view_as=subscriber

Her new book coming out is Tales from Parallel Worlds

Synopsis:

A collection of faerie tales and adventure stories from two worlds parallel to each other. One is a world filled with fae folk and monsters, and the other is place of clockwork and alchemy. Both are brimming with magic, mystery, and mortals who must find their places within.

Between the pages of these worlds, a boy learns his childhood friend is a dyrad, a lady must sneak away from her own ball to provide the cure to a plague-infected village, a siren has to solve a murder, and more.

Also includes an exclusive short story from the Howling Twenties series, involving the enchanted forest, a wedding day, and a blood moon.

Be swept away in tales of wonder- with all profit going to Polaris so girls and boys can have a chance to live their own faerie tales and adventures in freedom.

Now the reveal…

The cover is amazing!!!!!!!!

Make sure you guys add her book to Goodreads.

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/47583966-tales-from-parallel-worlds

Thanks for celebrating with me!!!

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